Steve,

They say it will get easier as time goes by, hell I’ve said that to others…but now I know the truth. It doesn’t get easier, it merely becomes further away.

Try as I might the moments in time that I wish would feel far away, are the ones I still see and feel clear as day. I know you don’t want that for me, for anyone, so if you have any ideas on how to make it dim, I’m all ears.

I talk to you every day and I know I must be getting bothersome. I try and imagine you’re busy fishing and sharing a pint with your Dad and mumbling Christ there she goes again. Pain in the ass or no, I know you’re listening. I see your hand gently guiding Cassi and I can’t thank you enough for staying with her.

Nothing I thought would be a year ago, is. Without you it seems our entire lives have changed.. Some days Cass and I talk about all the loss we feel. Who woulda thunk your reach would be as far as it is?
As the year has gone by I don’t think of you less, I only find it harder to see the happy healthy man we all once knew. The one thing that remains true are the last words I whispered to you on that day I hope part of you was still there, able to hear me…….

                      Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life.
I’ll miss you Steve, each and every day.

Love,

Les